Another year has passed and a new one is beginning. Now is usually the time when most people spend reflecting on the past year and looking forward to the coming year. Resolutions are made, goal setting and vision board making is top priority, and dreams and plans for the future are written down.
Resolutions or Goals?
I don't remember the last time I made a resolution. I'm not even sure I wrote it down and held myself accountable for it. Goals, however, are my favorite. I always have a goal. In the past, I've dedicated one or two goals to accomplish for the year - usually something that I'm struggling with and need to overcome at the time that I set it. My biggest goal for 2017 was to un-clutter my house. It took the entire year. I'm pretty proud of it too. Accomplishment feels so good.
For the last few weeks I've been trying to decide what I want to accomplish for this new year. I've been reading what others are doing - resolutions, goals, and even choosing one word to focus on for the year. I've also been listening to the Oola book on my audible app for the last few weeks. Living an Oola life means that you are growing and balanced in the 7 F's: fitness, finance, family, field (career), faith, friends, and fun. It's tempting to create resolutions for all seven of those areas in my life. Keeping all of those things in balance can be challenging. Although, it seems easy enough and makes life seem more complete.
Honestly, I've been procrastinating about what goals and/or resolutions to set for this coming year. I've felt a little lost as to what to do. And then, this morning at church, I heard something that lit a fire in my heart. I haven't wanted to commit to setting many goals because of fear of failure. If I set a goal or resolutions, I want to accomplish them - and setting so many feels like I would be setting myself up for failure. But, the Bible tells me that 'I can do all things through Christ' (Phillipians 4:13). It also says 'Many are the plans in a persons heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails' (Proverbs 19:21).
So, I've been evaluating my wants and reflecting on the desires of my heart. Yes, I want to have a well balanced life. I want to grow in my fitness journey, excel in my field and be in control of my finances, spend more time with my family and friends, grow stronger in my faith, and have fun doing it all.
I've asked myself why? Why do I want to accomplish this balance in my life? What is God's purpose for my life and my calling right now? How do these accomplishments fit into God's purpose? And then it hit me; for the last several years, I've had a gentle tug on my heart but I've been too afraid to take the leap and even try to make it happen.
Adoption. This has actually been on my heart since I was a little girl. Over the last ten years, my husband and I have discussed it several times. I even went to a few meetings to learn more about fostering and adopting in our community. And for years, I always found an excuse as to why I should't move forward. Excuses like, "I'm not financially ready yet." "I'm growing my family right now, I'll wait until my kids are older." "I'm working so much and have so little time with my own kids, how could I improve another kids life by bringing him into this crazy?" But those are all invalid excuses. If I wait around, I'll never be financially ready, I'll always say I'll wait till the kids are older, and I'll keep letting life get crazier and crazier.
Finally, this is my resolution for 2018. I resolve to focus on balancing and growing in all aspects of my life in order to fulfill God's purpose and to move towards the goal of adopting a sibling group. I don't know when this goal will actually be met, but I am dreaming big and taking small steps to reach it.